We’ve been incredibly blessed since our move to Utah 7.5 months ago (how has it been that long already!?). The friends we’ve met along the way, the new “family” we’ve created in our own communities, my job working with the best humans, our cozy apartment, our kind ward family, sweetest neighbors, I mean really we could not have asked for a better landing place.
Along the way I’ve shared our tender mercies and incredible blessings because that’s what I want to focus on. But of course, real life isn’t always full of happy miracles and blessings that seem to go our way. That just isn’t life.
The weight and reality of single motherhood has hit. me. HARD. I can honestly say these last couple weeks have been the most draining physically and emotionally since we moved to Utah. I hit my wall. I’m drained. Exhausted. Sad. Frustrated. Stressed. So much to do with not enough time. Still hoping for the best though and recognizing that with every high point comes a low point. We just have to ride this wave out and let it teach us what it’s meant to.
The second picture is one I found today that brought me to tears. The artist created it envisioning herself as the young single mother she was. Just because we carry it well, doesn’t mean it isn’t heavy.
And today, I took @madisonmindbodyfit stress test on her page that scores your stress over the last 2 years. It says if your score is over 300, it’s likely you’re experiencing some detrimental effects of cumulative stress.
I got 839. 💀
We really are so blessed and have been given SO much. But it’s a hard phase of life right now. These last 2 years have been hard. And that’s okay. We’ll be okay. I trust God’s plan for us. We don’t want pity. I just want to be real by sharing the lows too. We got this, but a little extra lovin never hurts.
