Since April of this year (2018), I’ve been going through an extremely testing time in my life. One day I’ll feel comfortable sharing the details (and I have no idea when that’ll be), but it shattered my world. Everything I knew, or thought I knew, was put into question. I all of a sudden had no idea what my true reality was. I felt as though my life had been a lie. I got knocked down HARD, and all of this was happening while I was battling with postpartum depression, anxiety, and OCD. My son saved my life. He was what was getting me through each and every day. When I felt unloved and or unneeded in this life, I looked at my son and remembered my purpose. The love and joy that beams from his eyes when he sees me is indescribable. He is our reason.
Because of this heartbreaking trial, I’ve been forced to face my demons head on. All weaknesses I possess have been brought to the surface as I’ve been battling with trying to stay strong. This has been the biggest blessing in disguise. I have been forced to either turn this situation into an incredible transforming time in my life, or drown. I chose to transform. To bloom in the dirt that I was planted in. To adjust my sails. To use this time to become the best version of myself. I was thrown into the lions den, and instead of being eaten alive, I tamed the beasts. All of a sudden I felt myself literally blossoming into this woman I had always wanted to be. I found purpose, renewed passion, and my spark that was dimmed turn into a full on fire.
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“And one day she discovered that she was fierce, and strong, and full of fire, and that not even she could hold herself back because her passion burned brighter than her fears.” -Unknown |
I feel this massive pull to write down my thoughts, impressions, and feelings and to share it with the world to whoever will listen. I always have. I’ve never been one to shy away from sharing my trials in hopes I can perhaps help whoever may need it, even if it’s in the smallest ways. I believe everything we go through in this life is meant to help others when we use those times to become better versions of ourselves. I believe and live for vulnerability. The raw, the real, the messy. NO ONE’S life is perfect no matter how perfect it may look on the outside. Every. single. human. has their individual trials and hardships. Why not help whoever we can along the way by being vulnerable and sharing our stories, to help others know they are never alone? This is what I hope to do by creating this blog:)
Here’s to my new, continuous journey towards progression, not perfection. I can’t wait to share with you my thoughts, ideas, journeys, and all things uplifting and hopefully aiding. I won’t limit myself to what I share on this blog. Whatever I feel needs to be shared, I’ll share it! Whatever I want to share, I’ll share it! Family life, lifestyle, photography, uplifting messages, all the things!
I’m so excited to continue sharing my journey with you. Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read my writing. I hope to be able to connect with many of you, so don’t be afraid to reach out and say hi!:) I would LOVE that! I want your raw, your real, your beautiful, imperfect perfection. Let’s be friends and help each other in this thing called life.
WE GOT THIS!
Special thanks to my girl Ahleesi Moments Photography for capturing these photos for me and helping me feel empowered and beautiful!
